送不出的礼物

how to start my today blog leh? hmm~

I REALLY WANT a GIRLFRIEND!!!!DO YOU UNDERSTAND??

but i can't find simply..thats why im already in chinese say "open window" already~ *smile

now,playing yiruma songs..with many feeling in my lonely heart..wanted to express all in todays blog but can't..

todays topic..as above..

ya..present that cant give!! this topic is my cute cousin sister think de when we talking about gf/bf..haiz..they already have their love one but where is mine?? ya..i have a person that i like but how? she don like me..so i still can change to happy mood everyday,keeping happy mood everyday..u will saw me sad and alone a few times because i cant tahan my feeling the whole day..

talk back about the present..i bought it last christmas,wanted to give it to the person i like as christmas gift but..i don have the guts to give it to her..the present is still wrapped with cute present paper,inside it have a small nice card with greetings..

*the song right now making my eyes come out with tears again..*

the present i really don know how to deal with it..im thinking of waiting to this coming Christmas only give it to her...then only confess to her?? i know its sound romantic but i don know at that time do i have the guts to confess or not...

and since this year starts..i knew she want to upgrade her English!! then i think how to help her..i jau think dou "readers digest" this book..i hear from my friend its helps..so i think about to lend her this book..and i done that..already lend her the 1st book..just now i bought the 2nd book..waiting her to finish the 1st book then only lend her the 2nd book..im think of what nice thing or romantic thing to put inside and at the last month of this year i can make something special out to impress her..impress her?? i know its sound not that nice because if the person like you,u don need to do anything special...

ITS COME NATURALLY!!

thanks to both of my cousin brother and cousin sister accompany now..they still not yet sleep because want to accompany..thank you..i get your nice heart..

i really like her..but she don know maybe..and i felt sad sometimes saw her so happy..do i looks bad when i said this? i don know..i just felt sad when saw her happy sometimes because i cant that happy..but im very hopes she happy always, also hope that im the one that make her happy..i do not know what will happen next but i really want to appreciate HER..

i think thats all for today ba..seems long passage today..thanks

一半？

亲爱的另一半，你好吗,我好孤单哦！你为什么还没出现呢？

喝酒的伴 一起看電影的伴
早午晚餐的那個伴
朋友不能留得太晚
明天要上班 唱K的伴
一起去旅行的伴
聽懂我的笑話的伴
我的生活 只差那個人就美滿

快樂剩一人分享 快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯
心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬

沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子填滿
節目卻提醒我孤單

沒有想法 有想法又能怎樣
只能寫部落格整晚
幾個留言安慰不了 心裡的遺憾
沒有負擔 原來也是種負擔
自由多得讓人心慌
你羨慕我 那要不要跟我交換

快樂剩一人分享 快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯
心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子填滿
別來提醒 我的孤單

快樂剩一人分享 快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯
心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬

holiday..

many of my friend has gone to holiday..i would like to go too but no chance at all..

long time did not go to out station holiday le..

19 years old of me still cant have the freedom..

work~work~work~

everyday work~and everyday bored~almost bored to death..

only everyday at night can enjoy..plus chat..

very tired..tired of everything..not only from outside but inside too..

need someone to fill in the blank in my heart..can i? i don know..

just wanna update for those who want to see...>.<

wondering...

There is a church that i started to going every week, and i learn something there every week..met a lot of new friends and my Indian range of  friend is getting bigger.. 

seriously, i not totally comitted to that church 100% because I don think I will..there reasons behind it actually..

this church i cant say it is 100% a "proper" church because i don know the background of this church..because of this, i started to think about this already..u know..everything i will think for it..

today, my church.. p@w were not good, they did not practice for p@w at all, can i ask any church did not practice for p@w? it was too obvious..the sound, the band..hmm...hope it will change in the future..p@w is not for fun..is a serious thing..p@w can really touch a person heart..

but today my church can made a step..they started to use hug which i think it is vv nice to close up the gap between friends..Amen for that..^^

wonder why Ah Boy did not came church..he no reply me msg.. :(

Morning and Night

I do not know..

why?

in the morning i have to work but at night my feeling change..

down to the lowest..thats why i come out with a sentence at fb...

你们觉得渴望爱情的人会是花心的人吗?

hmm..deep down my heart..i really need a Lover to cover my boredom..

but that is not the priority...

start from i work..everyday i cant sleep well..keep on sleep wake~

yesterday broke the record..5 times sleep wake..in between have dreams..haiz..

mayb i think a lot b4 i slept..but i cant control it..

anyone teach me??

every night..

Mooncake Festival

Work just now but no much patient came..i think is because many of them are celebrating mooncake festival with their family or friends....hmm...wondering when is the last time i celebrate with family and my friends...

9pm finish work..driving car and heard 李玖哲new songs.....and cried while drive...so touch..

on the road back home...saw many ppl lighting candles outside their house and play

Tang Lung"..

how? friends now is all anti-ing me..avoiding me..lol...think too much..

Mcd-ing

Sunday....usually is my day at Church......

but...

start from this week...Sunday...i do not know where shall i go....no where to go and do......

at Mcd online alone.....