holiday..

many of my friend has gone to holiday..i would like to go too but no chance at all..

long time did not go to out station holiday le..

19 years old of me still cant have the freedom..

work~work~work~

everyday work~and everyday bored~almost bored to death..

only everyday at night can enjoy..plus chat..

very tired..tired of everything..not only from outside but inside too..

need someone to fill in the blank in my heart..can i? i don know..

just wanna update for those who want to see...>.<

wondering...

There is a church that i started to going every week, and i learn something there every week..met a lot of new friends and my Indian range of  friend is getting bigger.. 

seriously, i not totally comitted to that church 100% because I don think I will..there reasons behind it actually..

this church i cant say it is 100% a "proper" church because i don know the background of this church..because of this, i started to think about this already..u know..everything i will think for it..

today, my church.. p@w were not good, they did not practice for p@w at all, can i ask any church did not practice for p@w? it was too obvious..the sound, the band..hmm...hope it will change in the future..p@w is not for fun..is a serious thing..p@w can really touch a person heart..

but today my church can made a step..they started to use hug which i think it is vv nice to close up the gap between friends..Amen for that..^^

wonder why Ah Boy did not came church..he no reply me msg.. :(

Morning and Night

I do not know..

why?

in the morning i have to work but at night my feeling change..

down to the lowest..thats why i come out with a sentence at fb...

你们觉得渴望爱情的人会是花心的人吗?

hmm..deep down my heart..i really need a Lover to cover my boredom..

but that is not the priority...

start from i work..everyday i cant sleep well..keep on sleep wake~

yesterday broke the record..5 times sleep wake..in between have dreams..haiz..

mayb i think a lot b4 i slept..but i cant control it..

anyone teach me??

every night..

Mooncake Festival

Work just now but no much patient came..i think is because many of them are celebrating mooncake festival with their family or friends....hmm...wondering when is the last time i celebrate with family and my friends...

9pm finish work..driving car and heard 李玖哲new songs.....and cried while drive...so touch..

on the road back home...saw many ppl lighting candles outside their house and play

Tang Lung"..

how? friends now is all anti-ing me..avoiding me..lol...think too much..

Mcd-ing

Sunday....usually is my day at Church......

but...

start from this week...Sunday...i do not know where shall i go....no where to go and do......

at Mcd online alone.....

Stop by

just stop by here and i feel a lot of thing~

friends~ good bye to some of you..i did wrong things btw for those think i have does wrong..

take care for some of you there...take really good care there....

one of my close friend already not at M'sia d...he is going to London study d..and officially my close friend list had come to 0..no more..

My badge friends most of it is gone..and now is time for me to gone too...maybe~ maybe~ give me a few months ba..

i had enough...enough...sad enough...

Human are 3S's

STUBBORN

SILLY &

STUPID. include me..

see ya my friends...most of you cant see my for some time...sms me ba if miss me...but i don expect much of it...i know my own.. tau sendiri..

...

just want to say im vv tired~ 

pray for me o..2moro last paper..

must score high for 2moro paper..

MUST~keke..

i want to sleep lo...night night..

Hmm~ todays feeling.

Long time no update this blog le..

How are u guys? fine? keke..

this week is a tired week. Friday early morning went to herbal garden"草药园" 

wow.im so excited~ saw lots of herbal and lot of funny and weird name of the herbal plant..lol..such as dragon tongue, crocodile tongue and lots more.. we ate some of the fruits of the herbal plant..and the most unforgettable fruits till now i still cant forget..because of it weird taste...it makes my tongue become 麻痹~yii~~ not delicious..

i have a good time with my friends too..they are so " silly and cute btw~ keke....for some of the people only...if u think is you then is you la....hahahahahaha....don sms me scold me o....lol..

On Saturday, early morning again..went to eat breakfast with Mi2~ lol..

that time we eat breakfast than i know she is so lazy de~ i told her that many people say her short hair very nice..but she said very "ma fan" because need to comb hair wor~ she said usually she no comb hair de.......yer~~ like that also can..zzz~ 

After we ate we went to my sweet home" my church"

I "搬" a lot of thing leh that time...very tired..hand muscle also felt pain d...old d ba?..maybe..lol..

I get scolded by a auntie o~ so pity and cham....sobx..

In the AFternoon..my friends and I started to practice P&W for our anniversary..

we sing until so tired and still cant finish the practice because we all already tired..cant sing with nice with our heart..because we need to sing the song to God..but our heart and body already tired..so we all hold our hand together to pray to God..

hmm~ that day I woke up on 6.30am.. and back home at 10.30pm...."siao" meh? 16Hours without rest.......

Sunday early morning again....lol..but this time is went to church service.just i arrive to church, Queeny gave a bottle of thing to me..said is 段姐 gave de...haha....is 海底椰凉水....thank you for taking care of me..

aiya..practice our drama again...tired...

hmm~ a friend of mine felt so tired wor~ she looks so tired till cant walk properly..so cham..but more cham is~~~~~~ I saw her back home d..then i sms her ask where she go..she said something that i have the same feeling i had before..so i knew what is her feeling..she feel so sad and moodless..

What actually friends is? what is your thought?

how do u feel when u felt that your friends not treating u good? but u treat them good?

In the evening, Elwin, Mi2, hui xin, Jia wei, Cy and I went to sing K~

In the beginning the 1st song they sang i already start to become moody le...

haiz~ i felt like so want to have a partner with me..so i can share the joy and happiness with her..

but i know this kind of thing is hard..you cant just "cincai" pick right?

felt so lonely..

u try to imagine in a K box room with so many people and loud sound you still felt lonely??

moodless Cont~

so i made a promises to myself..i wont go K box again until the "time" come..

on the way of my moodless, i still can heard the voices of them singing songs..

无可否认， Mi2 voice is superb~ very nice and calm..

in my circle of friends i never have  a friend that have a nice voices like her do..wow...very nice...felt like a artist singing~ but she is "a bit shorter" la...hahahaha...

after finish singing k we went back home..and i find my friends that not feeling well.. hoping that she don moodless..but she still moodless.. nvm lo..

i think she now happy a bit le ba..lol..she say "he" is "she" wor......nah~ u die le...i wrote at here d.....lol

i wrote finish la this blog.... hope that the next time i wrote this blog is have some happy things happen..

Phone~

从以前到现在,我的电话总是在"沉睡"当中..

太久没听见我心爱的电话"呼叫"我了..

有时真的有种想法..

有电话跟没电话没什么俩样..

咳..

是我自己的问题吧..

在人人面前总是以最好的化妆品掩盖自己的不足,悲哀..

知道的人只寥寥无几之人..

但..

结果..

一样..

电话以在我的视线范围以外了..

直到今天..

才发觉它的存在..

咳..

我承认我的人缘没他人来的好..

也没他人这么会抓摸人心..

一向来死板板一直坚持自己原则的我--傻瓜..

就是只会这样..

我多么的希望我的电话和其他人的电话一般..

拥有生命力及活泼的雀跃着..

但..

这可能么?

事实就是一种我们无论如何都得接受的事情..

算了吧..

把这一切当作倾诉..

By Ah Boy ( same thought with him)

            

                                                                                                                                                  

                                  

Kid

Just watch a video..do u think about when you are kid? we are full of believe..we believe that we can do all the things and we done it because we are full of it.. we wear red blanket at our back and we fly like a superman, we stole broom and sit on it, and we become witch. we climb tree even we do not know it will fell. we just believe.. but sooner or later when we grown up, we exam fail or get low marks, we think that we cant do it. when we have a brilliant relationship, we doubted. when we want to start a business, we scare we cant do it well. Everything we loss faith to ourself, we still creative but we full of doubt.

Give us a chance to prove what we can do. Do not hesitating, Just Believe~

What to say? ntg to say d...

haiz ya......it seems the problem is not from me..Esther said bye bye still can be friend..i think that for a while and is true.. But~ not me that don want.. so, what can i say? no more..just can tell her to take care.. 

nvm ba..let her calm for some times and things will be more stable..

ok la..don want to talk about this le..

2moro i follow Esther to go Sitiawan to visit a friend.. maybe i can buy some "干饼" hmm~~~ delicious~

then 5pm 2moro will back Ipoh again..actually i do not want to back hometown this week de but all my housemate back their hometown wor!!! so bad luck.. nvm la..just now my aunt ask me for dinner 2moro, wee~ auntie says go eat japanese food..nice..and the most exciting part is I will get my new notebook 2moro..yeah!!!!

need to sleep le la..2moro need to wake up early..night night 安安..God Bless..

hey hey..is time for me update my blog..

Yesterday was so great..Hillsong Australia came Ipoh~ woohoo..im very excited about it. Im from Kampar "tumpang" my friends car back to Syuen Hotel..and yesterday i have not eaten anything yet..so lame..lazy to eat lo.

We reach there about 6pm++. and there is so like "sardin"=crowded, learn it from CM lo..keke..few minutes later my church friends has arrive too..haha..we queue-d..there are so many people..as u know..place that have people,sure have something happen.. some of the people are so rude and no manners..don want say in detail but are they Christian? im doubt it..

haha..and a..one of my friends a..keep on run away from another person..haha..wonder if i chase a girl will that girl run away from me like that..scare x2 tim~ ss-ing.. 

after we all get in that hall we were squeezing between peoples just to go more in front..we hold shoulders by shoulders to make sure wont get loss..haha.. the friends i talk about just now..i joking with her..said her sure cant see what happen in front or on stage because she was short..haha..sorry ya..

crazy-ing,dancing,shouting~

there is a short little preach from Pastor Joshua, he is so handsome..how come Pastor so young..wow..very smart look..there is a part that he tell us about a story last time his friend and him went to cruise..then his friend want to get accept from a girl at the pub/disco, his friend drank so much..until when his friends went back to their room *Ps. Joshua and his friend share a room* Ps Joshua smell a smells that was so disgusting that he never smells before, its smells like poops,urine,and all sort of vomit ingredient in a blender..It was so yuks........can u imagine that? =.=

Back lu..said bye2 to my church friends and went off..back Kampar..so tired..we had our supper which is my dinner i guess..haha..

felt so dizzy right now..maybe use too much of energy..anyone give me some strength? keke..actually i desire for my next love..but...needs time now..and don think about it,just let it naturally be..keke.. 

Thank You CM.

haha.my blog looks nice right? haha..i cant imagine i design my blog..but it was not only me design la..I ask Chin Mun to help..i call her cm..keke..actually is first time i chat with her..but not bad ma..i figure out a thing..she like to put hee~...lol..

i still satisfy with my blog now..but i will still find her to help me design my blog become more nicer..

gonna rush my assignment..anyway thanks cm..

Boredom

how to get rid of my boredom? anyone tell me? every week back Kampar i felt so alone and bored..this feeling i hate it a lot..is really hate it..why cant i born out is a girl? so that everyday my phone will actively sounding, i really felt my phone is broken because no light or sound coming out from it..that cause me always miss Sat and Sun..haiz..felt like crying again..my roommate is going to move out due to some problem..thats more alone for me in the future..

envy of many you ppl are so busy and got a lot of friends to find..no one chat to me..maybe there is..but a ghost..whispering to me..

unpopular ppl less friends..and that is true..just let me cry till sleep everyday..

Last weekend was awesome..

keke..I curi curi back Ipoh last weekend..haha..i miss ma..so Sat i follow Ah g car back after she finish her mid term test..haha..

At that night we have video sharing..we watch a HK made Christian movie..the main character is the from  大冬瓜 main character that comedy..felt so touch..the movie is talking about after 3-4 years of birth he had a blood cancer..this kid was wonderful..he so that small in age but his talking style so like adults..if u saw this movie before u will felt the same feeling i had too..but after a year later he finally die and back to God side..Amen..

what i learn from this movie is how can a little child had so much courage and faith on God but why us do not have such faith on God? I think about that too..haha

On Sunday, Duncan and Vivian came back and attend the Sunday servis..so touch too because they seldom come back..Sen Yang,Duncan,Vivian and Me sat on the same row and same bench..we talk a lot and play alot just like last time..and we keep tickle Vivian..stole id card to look at the funny face a...haha..

That noon we practice for our youth anniversary too..very tired..MiMi act as popo wor..haha..after we finish Elwin,ccy,cy,hui xin and I go to ice cream cafe to eat ice cream..haha..the photo will be uploaded later..stay tuned on my wall..

later a that night we go JJ..very tired d still go wor..sienz..and i bought 2 pairs of ear ring..blue and white de..thanks to them for helping me choose..

the sad thing is i cant back Kampar that day because Ah g follow yy back and Esther today only back..that day i got discussion too..but really no choice..need to postpone to later lo..felt guilty..haha..

please let me to enjoy my bath because i haven taken my bath yet..see ya.. 

Hey~

what up guys? haha..now im addicted  to Lost..is very nice foreign movie..this week maybe don't have back Ipoh because have assignment to do..miss church..^^haha..my roomate not here too..quite..but also more bored..

anyway..just want to updated my blog and write down my life..im going to have a new Asus notebook soon..wee~have video card in it de..can play single player le...Football Manager..yeah~haha..now im playing Digimon world 2 on my pc too..just dl ps emulator..haha..is a old old old game but this game is popular through out all people even though those ppl older than me..very nice game..ya..a RPG game..i like RPg game..haha..

ok..alone this week again..see ya..

tired~

after back Ipoh more tired de wor..hmm..but nvm..can sang out my stress i had this few weeks..thanks to them so I can go K-boxing to sang..all songs......hmm...don want to said it..

already week 10 le..need to start to revise more le..God will at my side..yeah..pray more too..

w z x t 

ai o a iang

Need help

who can help me design my blog??? need help here........teach me..don help me sorry write wrong....

Need help

who can help me design my blog??? need help here........teach me..don help me sorry write wrong....

what??

haiz..just now just write another blog..but what i write is at my old blog..forget d..but then i delete d..i have copy it to paste it at here but who knows i copy another things again...haiz..gone liao..sienz..lazy to write again..

f3,>.<,^^

same mood day..

what im talking is no any interesting thing happen to blow away my shady mood..

thinking about what computer should i buy now..actually is really hard to choose..because there is so many choices and im not IT addict..so i asked my uncle..firstly i wanted to buy a dell brand but my uncle said No Dell..think other..haha..nvm..it must have some bad thing that Dell have..so i ask for any recommendation, my uncle said either toshiba or asus..wow..actually i want to buy a asus notebook but i scare expensive but just now i browse through the asus site..is still inside my budget..so i send 3 model of asus to my uncle to let him to see whether which one is better..keke..hopefully i really i can get a asus notebook..y? no y? because i can play some single player game with it..i want to play football manager.wee~ 

2moro morning only back Ipoh..

shopping in Ipoh huh you? with a lot of friends..got girls and boys..wow..nice..can get together to build relationship with new friends and maybe~~~~~~~ya,you know what i mean..and that is good..

for me..yesterday found a girl friend to chat...ehem..not girlfriend,is girl gender friends..to chat about my recent incident..ya..she had the same incident like me too but her problem is already solve..so i ask for her advise..but....nothing special from her too..sienz..haha..

 

ok la..i stop here le..bb..wish i have a good weekend..

A new life huh..

Ya..new life,lots of thing are change now..need to start over again..sorry if my new blog is easy and not like my old blog that looks nice and cool because i do not know how to design it..old blog lot of memories..ya..whole lot of it..and i will miss it..really..because there is lot of thing that i 1st time doing it..especially the oldest passage in my old blog..u know if u know..all thing that i mention is all truth..

hard to un huh my english..just rojak write because i have already get use to it d.. things are changing..what? i really hope i can quickly get rid of this feeling.. felt so much pain when im thinking about it.all i can says is sorry.

im not that kind of person that know how to express well..but ill always change myself to become a better person so that people around me will accept me..

how to get on in my new life? i do not know because i felt really lonely..then it makes me think a lot of thing again..but thats me right..love to think things....a thinker..wakaka..

there is something i really want to express from my heart..that is do not think others did not think it because you don know it..maybe they do think about it but they kept it in their heart..

every week i also went back to my hometown,Ipoh..because I miss my church,i love my church..when i think about it my eyes drop tears and my mouth smile..and also i miss my friends..friends is important in our life in future too.we cant ignore it..but u need to think carefully too because not all friends is good..i think m group of friends is not bad..i don like people that smoke,really hate it..just have a words to said them is you are hurting yourself and people that have relation with you..

i think thats all for today ok..there are some final i wanted to say is..

sorry and happy always..^^my sign..keke..