送不出的礼物

how to start my today blog leh? hmm~

I REALLY WANT a GIRLFRIEND!!!!DO YOU UNDERSTAND??

but i can't find simply..thats why im already in chinese say "open window" already~ *smile

now,playing yiruma songs..with many feeling in my lonely heart..wanted to express all in todays blog but can't..

todays topic..as above..

ya..present that cant give!! this topic is my cute cousin sister think de when we talking about gf/bf..haiz..they already have their love one but where is mine?? ya..i have a person that i like but how? she don like me..so i still can change to happy mood everyday,keeping happy mood everyday..u will saw me sad and alone a few times because i cant tahan my feeling the whole day..

talk back about the present..i bought it last christmas,wanted to give it to the person i like as christmas gift but..i don have the guts to give it to her..the present is still wrapped with cute present paper,inside it have a small nice card with greetings..

*the song right now making my eyes come out with tears again..*

the present i really don know how to deal with it..im thinking of waiting to this coming Christmas only give it to her...then only confess to her?? i know its sound romantic but i don know at that time do i have the guts to confess or not...

and since this year starts..i knew she want to upgrade her English!! then i think how to help her..i jau think dou "readers digest" this book..i hear from my friend its helps..so i think about to lend her this book..and i done that..already lend her the 1st book..just now i bought the 2nd book..waiting her to finish the 1st book then only lend her the 2nd book..im think of what nice thing or romantic thing to put inside and at the last month of this year i can make something special out to impress her..impress her?? i know its sound not that nice because if the person like you,u don need to do anything special...

ITS COME NATURALLY!!

thanks to both of my cousin brother and cousin sister accompany now..they still not yet sleep because want to accompany..thank you..i get your nice heart..

i really like her..but she don know maybe..and i felt sad sometimes saw her so happy..do i looks bad when i said this? i don know..i just felt sad when saw her happy sometimes because i cant that happy..but im very hopes she happy always, also hope that im the one that make her happy..i do not know what will happen next but i really want to appreciate HER..

i think thats all for today ba..seems long passage today..thanks